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My world consists of anime, piano, books, sloth and gluttony. If you see any other subject matter, it's only a momentary lapse.

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(ordered by priority)
Boogiepop Phantom, Wolf's Rain, Crest of the Stars, .hack//sign

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E Pluribus Unicorn by Theodore Sturgeon

I Am Legend by Richard Mathetson

The Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.

The Plague by Albert Camus

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mad world
sarah daisy
sterno pants
listen missy
the red zone
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wFriday, August 01, 2003

I've been noticing a lot lately that one of the secretaries here is always on the phone. It's obvious that she's on personal calls because she kind of huddles over the phone (as much as a 300+ pound woman can "huddle") and talks really soft. She never picks up her bosses' lines when they roll over, leaving me to do it. She takes off early. I've been really annoyed lately because I've been working hard to get here on time and stuff.

But I noticed that I do the exact same things with online chatting. I IM, I IRC, I sit here with other people chatting at/around me for my entire day. I'm basically doing the same things - it's just that she and her friends are too computer illiterate to figure out they could all these things online without having to be on the phone.

So I felt a little bad about this, until I consulted Susanna. She says she does the same thing, but that in doing things online it's much easier to multi-task. If she's talking on the phone, trying to type and do work, she tends to lose her train of thought in one or the other. Myself, whenever I'm on the phone I have to pretty much stop what I'm doing. I can have IRC open and IMs going and still get work done.

Upshot: I am superior.

posted by Beatriz at 11:27 AM


Darkhalf: Why is fucking Home Movies on?
hernick: perhaps because you're tuned to home movie network
hernick: don't you have over 800 channels anyway ?
Darkhalf: Why would I have over 800 channels?
Darkhalf: And why did you have to use the number 800?
hernick: for many good reasons, which must remain mysterious.
hernick: would you rather i'd have used the accursed number of the beast ?
Darkhalf: Yes.

posted by Beatriz at 2:08 AM


I have finished Dual! Parallel Trouble Adventures. I am so excited. No more of that dumb show. EK said he read it's a parody of Eva - but it was really just a ripoff. The comedy fell flat, the characters were ridiculous (although they got less annoying towards the end), the ending was a typical anime ending that Eva, RahXephon and Serial Experiments Lain did a hell of a lot better. The ending to this was just too happy. No one dies, everyone lives together, all is splendid. Woohoo.

Why did I keep watching it after the first episodes made me gag? I don't know. Someone recommended it as similar to Eva, and so I watched it. I've started other series and not finished them, ones I disliked less than this one. But, this was just 13 episodes, and I wanted to see how much they really ripped it off of Eva. How shameless they got.

Anyways, I watched it, it's done, it gets a 4 on my scale.

posted by Beatriz at 2:05 AM

wThursday, July 31, 2003

God, that totally sucked.

Kind of.

I just went over my entire existence between kindergarten through college with my therapist. And it still hurts. The bullying, the rejection, the shame... all I have to say is, after the way I've been treated, is it any fucking surprise that I don't want to be around other people?

posted by Beatriz at 6:43 PM


As much as I adore IRC sometimes, there are some real pieces of shit who frequent the chatrooms I do.

Take Nijyo, for instance. He doesn't consider the people he talks to as "real people," and treats them as such. I had the guy on ignore for a good 2 years and finally took him off maybe 7 or 8 months ago. At work, I have him back on ignore because he was really insulting me one day. He was trying to get me all riled up about something - and, hey, it worked. I did an /ignore, and life is much more peaceful there.

Example of one day's insult: I was talking about Buffy, saying how I used to love it when I watched it, but that I think I outgrew the show when I lost interest. His response, "I find it hard to imagine that [Beatriz] 'outgrows' anything."

So today I caught the tail end of a pal's conversation, but couldn't follow it no matter how much I scrolled back. Apparently Nijyo was involved, and I only saw one side of it. So the guy apparently starts insulting me again (which I couldn't see), and my pal totally took him down. Not rudely, he doesn't stoop to the level that this bastard is at, but I was pretty amused.

Summary of some of the stuff he said: "I'm all for insulting people, but your insults lack style. I recommend you check your logs for some ysac conversations." Ysac is this freak of a 14-year-old from Norway who's pretty useless, except that he bonds even the worst enemies on channel together against him. We ban him sometimes, but the ban always gets lifted when we need entertainment.

I suspect Nijyo responded with more insults to me, and my pal says, "Yeah, but you're on ignore [for her] and the rest of us don't care."

Sometimes those guys can really come through.

In other IRC news (ie, I'll blog it here so I can stop telling my friends who really couldn't care less): My dear friend Evilkosh has been asked to be a guest at an anime convention! He's the one responsible for my anime obsession, he gave me the first few eps of RahXephon all those months ago, and started me on this journey into the void.

He's taken a hiatus from IRC, but we still chat about 4-5 times a week on IM. He makes video games for the Gameboy, mostly based on anime series. So, not only does he do cool stuff like that, but he gets to watch anime for work! How kickass is that? I'm totally jealous.

We were IMing the other night and he said that a friend of his asked him to be a guest at some convention in Chicago (I don't have the url and he's gone to bed, so I can't get it at the moment). I'm seriously tempted to go out there to show my support. Plus get cool anime merchandise, since the selection is so poor online. Oh, there's some stuff, but none really for the shows I love. Animenation has some cool Trigun keychains, and I might get the Wolfwood item, although the Meryl, Milly and Vash items are cute too. Wolfwood's my favorite though, and he just kicks some ass with his "mercy"-filled (read: gun-filled) cross and his cigarette. He's rather similar to Spike from Cowboy Bebop, although I don't think it's a ripoff because Bebop and Trigun came out in the same year. I could be wrong, though.

Ok, rambling. Back to point. I might go to Chicago (to which I've never been), support my shy friend at his first public appearance, watch mad amounts of anime with him (yay, anime with the real, live EK!) and spend money I don't have on things I don't need. Unfortunately, I wouldn't be able to smoke when I'm there because he doesn't approve of las drugas. Which is a shame, because it makes anime much more fun to watch.

posted by Beatriz at 12:42 AM

wWednesday, July 30, 2003

Note to self: Wine is not a good idea for dart nights.

Cider's starting to tire me out a bit, and I'm not a big beer fan. So I decided to go with (white) wine last night. I'm unsure where the problem lies though: the fact that I started drinking at 6:30, or because of wine itself. I might try moderation next time.

Wine hangovers suck. Especially when they involve an ex-boyfriend calling (me back; I called him last night when I got home but didn't get an answer) at 8:30 in the morning. But thank the powers that be that he did! If he hadn't, I would've kept hitting snooze and been late on another Wednesday morning.

posted by Beatriz at 8:47 AM

wTuesday, July 29, 2003

My friend forwarded me the Slipper and the Rose official site, and totally made my day.

I've been sitting here mouthing the words and looking at the lyrics. The soundtrack and the DVD will be mine.

I haven't had such a giggle in months.

posted by Beatriz at 3:28 PM

wMonday, July 28, 2003

Also watched 28 Days Later last night. I'd been planning to see it with some peope (including someone I have a crush on), but that never panned out. And it was just sitting there on my IRC acquaintance's FTP, so I downloaded it. Wasn't quite what I expected, but wasn't bad. Still prefer Shallow Grave.

posted by Beatriz at 11:02 AM


Whew. Now I'm crying in happiness. Aw, that was such a great episode!

posted by Beatriz at 1:45 AM


Oh no. I'm on episode 18 of X TV and I'm practically sobbing. One of the Seven Seals just got neutralized and I am devastated. That was horrible. Low blow.

posted by Beatriz at 1:31 AM

wSunday, July 27, 2003

Katori dies. Kamui mopes and says he couldn't do anything. Saiki dies, Subaru loses his right eye. Kamui mopes and says he couldn't do anything. Sorata says he couldn't do anything. Yuzuhira says she couldn't do anything. Arashi says she couldn't do anything.

Sensing a pattern?

If this happens everytime something bad occurs, I'm going to scream. It's almost as bad as Hinoto crying all the time. I suspect that it's to create an initial weak group of good guys that overcomes the powerful bad guys at the end. Because Fuma is sure kicking everyone's ass.

posted by Beatriz at 5:22 AM


It's really a shame that one of my favorite voice actors from RahXephon voices Hinoto in X TV. Hinoto, the Seal and Dragon of Heaven's Dreamgazer, has to be one of the whiniest, self-righteous, self-pitying spiritual leaders I've ever seen in a series. She hides things from her charges, she never ever leaves her temple area, and she's always crying.

Imagine Gandalf with a girlie complex.

What I do really like about X TV is the subtle references to an interesting take on Angels vs. Mortals. I only saw Prophecy once, but I think the idea was introduced to me in there, or maybe some fantasy series.

The general theme I'm getting is the concept of the angels as jealous of humans. Of God's favor to them. (Wait, was that in Paradise Lost? That would've then been the first.) This series has the Seven Seals (God's seals) as champions of the Dragon of Heaven - God's realm. The bad side so far, in which Fuma refers to humans as the filth of the Earth, are the Seven Angels and the Dragon of Earth.

In the Heaven prophecy, the way the world is heading, through human wisdom will eventually save the planet. If the Angels and the Earth side win, then the kekkai - what I think is a human construct, some kind of magic thing - will disappear, civilization will collapse, the Earth will eventually restore itself... and the angels will inherit?

posted by Beatriz at 3:40 AM